Swinging Through The Month

The sun is setting on a new month.  It happens roughly every thirty days, and has for as long as I can remember.  So you would think that by now I would expect this.  One could assume that I would have eventually come to term with this phenomenon.

But I haven't.

This month went by way too quickly.  It flew by and I enjoyed a lot of it.  Or at least I tried.


My highs were really high and my lows were really low.  This month was probably one of the most stressful months of my life.  But when it wasn't stressful, it was possibly one of the best months of my life.  I have just been swinging through the emotions this month.  I have just been hanging on to whatever sanity I can try to contain.



I always have good intentions at the beginning of each month.  The end of the month is a time for reflection.  A time to size up if I carried through.  Or fell short.  Or made great memories.

October was a haze.  It was challenging and exciting and busy and frustrating and amazing.

November will be less full.  It is a little bit colder, a little bit more serious, a little bit more my style.  I'm looking forward to November.

The Facts of Life

 

Say what you mean,
 
Do what you say, and
 
When you don't, admit it.
 

Throw My Love Around

This is a week for celebrations.  For loving and living and laughing.  This week is for us.



I have gotten through the stress of my previous weeks.  I have taken every test, attended every meeting, studied until I could no loner keep my eyes open.  And now it is through.  I got past the hard part.

I'm not saying that this week won't take a lot out of me.  Because it will.  I know it will.  There will be long hours and high anxiety.  Others may even shed tears.  But for me, this is a week of celebrations.

The past year has been the greatest one of my life so far.  I met the right people, had the most fun, and discovered what I want and need.  And as cheesy as it may be for me to say this: I know my life would not be the same without my pledge class and my sorority.


DG has always given me so much.  This week, I'm going to give so much back.


Recruitment week is a very long process.  I know that.  I know that I will be tired and cranky during most of the late nights.

But in 9 days, we will have a new pledge class filled with girls that are so special and were hand-picked to be with us.  We will get to show them everything that has made college incredible for us.


In nine days, I won't be the baby anymore.  No longer the new girl.  But I'm okay with that.  Because in nine days, there will be 100 more girls to share my excitement with.







I wrote a post a long time ago about how hearts are made of glitter that you scatter with all of the people and places that you love.  Well, this week is all about love for me.  So instead of sprinkling my love around, I'm going to throw it in the air.

Taking A Break

When things happen, they happen.  And usually, it is all at once.

So tonight, in the midst of my busy schedule, I took a break.  I let my hair down.  It might not be for long, especially since my 8:00 AM class always comes much too early.  But it is long enough.

Long enough for me to:

polish my fingernails,
take a hot shower,
lie down without an accounting book in my face,
watch the newest Glee,
eat fresh pita bread,
drink a Diet Coke with the perfect ice,
drift away with music,
and breathe.

Soon enough it will be the morning.  And with the morning comes a brand new day.  A day filled with studying, meetings, and sleep deprivation.


So until that time comes, I'm just going to keep doing what makes me happy.

Happy Birthday, Suze

When my sister moved to the big city, we all knew that we would have to do some adjusting.  No longer could I just drive over to her house if my internet wasn't working.  No longer could my mother have her come help out at work when she needed some assistance.  No longer could my father meet her when she was having car trouble and was in the midst of one of her many mini-crises.  We had some adjusting to do. And we all foolishly thought that we had mastered these issues pretty well.

And then we remembered: Beth is the one that does the birthday shopping.

With the midwesterner no longer in the region, my father and I had to buckle down and get the birthday presents ourselves.  That was such a challenge.  I had no idea what to do or where to even start.  Who knows my Mom better than my sister?  But my father and I persevered.  We made it through.  I would like to say that she had a terrific birthday, minus the fact that the midwesterner was not present.

I wanted to publish this blog yesterday (on your actual birthday), but the timing got the best of me.  I hope this weekend was fabulous.  I hope that you had the time of your life with your friends.  I hope that it was a birthday to remember.  I can't wait to see you in Oxford in just a few days.

Diet Coke in the Midst of Trouble

It has gotten to the point this year where I can no longer tell the days apart from one another.  This past weekend felt like an entire week and I have absolutely no recollection whatsoever of attending my classes this morning (however, my notes prove that I was in attendance).  I keep looking at my calendar at everything that I have to do in the coming weeks and it makes me want to curl up into a little ball.

My body hurts, my mind is sore, and my spirit is hanging on very gingerly.  I'm tired.  It is midterm time and it is taking itself out on me.  I can feel it.  It is palpable.  I'm doing my best to roll with the punches.




That being said, I am nothing short of thankful for the things that I still can look forward to.

My Oxford life is so exciting, my Mom's birthday is coming up, the mid-westerner is having a great week, and my best friends at home love me.  Deep down I know that I am happy.  It is just surface-level me that needs a breath of fresh air.

So tonight I celebrated myself.  With only a few things due for tomorrow, I relaxed.  I curled up in a blanket, laughed with my friends, watched my favorite shows, and savored every drop of the most precious thing in my life:

It's good to know that even when the world is raining down, Diet Coke will always be there to cheer me up.